|Keywords||Cancer, Catastrophe, Disease and Health, Empathy, Hospitalization, Humor and Illness/Disability, Illness and the Family, Patient Experience, Suffering, Survival|
This long (11 stanzas of ten lines each) poem takes us through the--at first faulty--cancer diagnosis, treatment, and recovery endured by the speaker's wife, and witnessed by the speaker. The poet personifies the tumor because to do otherwise would mean that he would "have to think of it as what, / in fact, it was: part of my lovely wife." The poison of chemotherapy that renders his wife "averse to it all" is contrasted with "perky visitors" and the flowers that they bring.
The poet imagines that the tumor of which his wife has been cured now resides in "Tumor Hell" where it lies "bleak and nubbled like a poorly / ironed truffle." The doctors who practice in teaching hospitals show the students how to deal with tumors: "batter it . . . strafe it . . . sprinkle it with rock salt and move on."
Now that his wife is better, the poet and his friends consider how he has fared. At first he was unable to concentrate, made lists, "wept, paced, / berated myself, drove to the hospital" and was "rancid with anger." Yes, it was awful, but he rejects pity--even self-pity. Only his wife has the right to give a name to the experience: "let her think of its name and never / say it, as if it were the name of God."
This is a wonderfully descriptive, humorous, but ultimately serious rendering of a horrendous experience. Each stanza is richly inventive and thought-provoking. In the final analysis, Matthews says, the experience cannot be trivialized with jargon terms like "caregiver" nor can it be owned by anyone other than s/he who has been ill.
|Source||After All: Last Poems|
|Annotated by||Aull, Felice|
|Date of Entry||03/27/01|