|Genre||Memoir (330 pp.)|
|Keywords||Adolescence, AIDS, Body Self-Image, Caregivers, Child Abuse, Childbirth, Children, Death and Dying, Doctor-Patient Relationship, Empathy, Family Relationships, Grief, Hospitalization, Human Worth, Illness and the Family, Love, Medical Education, Medical Mistakes, Mother-Son Relationship, Parenthood, Physician Experience, Power Relations, Pregnancy, Professionalism, Suffering, Survival, Technology, Women in Medicine|
Perri Klass, who had already written of her medical school education (A Not Entirely Benign Procedure: Four Years as a Medical Student, see this database), took notes, made dashed journal entries, and saved sign-out sheets and other written memorabilia during her internship and residency in pediatrics at The Children’s Hospital in Boston, Massachusetts. Because she is a writer, she looked at her experiences in medical training with an eye towards what stories were happening. This book then is a compendium of stories and essays (some previously published) about Klass’s pediatrics training.
Klass reflects on the difficulties of being a writer and physician: "I have been a double parasite, not only learning off patients, but also writing about them, turning the agonies of sick children into articles, using them to point little morals either about my own development as a doctor or about the dilemmas of modern medicine." (p. 297) But she also notes the benefits of writing during training: "between life at the hospital and with my family, it seemed that all my time was spoken for, and spoken for again. I needed some corner of my life which was all my own, and that corner was writing . . . I could describe the astonishing contacts with life and death which make up everyday routine in the hospital." (p. xvii)
Part of the book concerns issues of women in medicine; Klass debunks the mystique of the "superwoman"--the professional, wife and mother rolled up into one incredible ball of efficiency and perfection--with a month of laundry spilling over the floor. Klass, as a successful writer, struggles with this label and includes an essay on her experiences with a "crazy person" who anonymously and publicly accuses her of plagiarism in the midst of the stress and responsibilities of residency.
However, most of the book is about being a new doctor--the terror, the patients, the procedures, the other doctors and staff. She writes of first nights in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, delivery room crises, adolescents with chronic illnesses, and her struggles as a sleep and time deprived mother.
She addresses difficult issues: moral dilemmas, suffering, loss, the rape and abuse of children, children with AIDS. Throughout the book is a concern for the patient’s experience, as well as the doctor-in-training’s experience. After her first night on call caring for very premature infants she notes: "Maybe my first patient and I have more in common than I realized: we are both too immature to be out in the world, but with a lot of help, we may just make it." (p. 15)
Klass’s writing is fresh and incisive and very funny. The stories are entertaining, the humor self-deprecating. Here she is post-call--and asleep mid-sentence--at a fancy restaurant: "Nearby diners heard my snore and turned to look at the catatonic who had so kindly been taken out to brunch by well-meaning friends." (p.140)
Klass is at her best when she describes her reactions to situations, for instance, her annoyance at her flip-flops when she comes to an accident scene and has difficulty making her authority as a doctor known. The authenticity of the feelings and experiences she describes is also outstanding--I trained in a different specialty and in a different city, yet my recollection of my emotional reactions during training match hers.
|Place Published||New York|
|Annotated by||Shafer, Audrey|
|Date of Entry||02/02/99|